A Decade of You

18Jan2016

Here I go again with my obsessive nature. 
Why do I always pine for the wrong guy? The one who will clearly not give me the time of day or their love. 

If I pray for anything right now, it's the courage to quit while I'm ahead, but I know that will just progress this feeling. So I am trying not to feel too much, but still the repressed feeling of nearly a decade of liking someone is rushing ahead like a flood and sweeping me on.

The short fleeting moments of joy I get when he bestows me a smile or a hello literally makes me weak.
But I know there's no way for us. 

Like ever.